I can feel he does not love me as much as he used to. Everything was questioned, I am lost in what is right and what is wrong.I never knew how to define him and myself, to tell him the things that matter without making my heart bleed more.
I am trying to pull myself together day by day, but nothing seems to help.
The pain of his absence hurts so bad it feels like a knife in my chest. I can feel it when I lay next to him at night or when our hands touch during the day that everything has changed..and we should be grateful for every moment we have had on this planet together with each other before we change our course for good…

I miss him. He loves only charlotte escorts as opposed to me I do not ask for anything or complain about anything.. I just feel like everything is wrong, I don’t want to leave this world without feeling the warmth and love once again of my man. It’s hard not getting to know what he thinks or feels, it’s confusing as well when he tells me we can’t talk anymore. We should have talked more but we didn’t because he said it had nothing to do with our relationship..but in fact it did…it always will…;-) It hurts me that I am no longer the person that he had fallen in love with so many years ago, the person I used to be when we were first together. I have tried to change myself and I believe I have, but nothing seems to be enough.. I just want him to be happy and smile at me like before…as if nothing was wrong, as if we never had any disagreement. But everything is different now and it will always remain this way. I just am so tired of everything, so tired of fighting for this relationship once again. Maybe if I give up now things will be better in some weird way…but I cannot..because you can’t take something away from someone that you love even though you don’t want it anymore…

I am buried into this love so deep that I cannot get out of it, I don’t want to be anywhere else but by his side… I know he still likes me and cares about me cause he is not like most guys out there! He has a good heart and that’s why I am trying to hold onto him for as long as things are ok with us. But there comes a time when you should move on, but we haven’t reached that point yet… Maybe it won’t happen at all..maybe we will be together forever and grow old together..but that is not something I can foresee…I just have to wait and see what will happen next.

I wish we could see each other more often and talk about our feelings, maybe we would be closer now. Maybe I will never know how he thinks, how he feels, what his ideas are about this relationship of ours. Maybe I will never know…it hurts me so much to think about it..My little feelings are just not enough for him to open up and tell me if he misses me or not…maybe if I had had a child he might want for us to live together on the same planet.. but that is not possible anyway so I don’t even want to think about it…

I miss him…. It’s time to move on and be the better person I can be.